|May 2, 2008||Posted by Mabel under Thoughts & Emo-ness|
After five days of spotting, it finally blown into bleeding and cramping yesterday. We rushed to the hospital’s emergency where very lovely doctors attended to us with a transvaginal ultrasound scan and a blood test.
According to the blood test, I was supposed to be six weeks pregnant but the transvaginal ultrasound scan revealed that I have “anembryonic pregnancy” commonly known as a blighted ovum – it means that instead of a blastocyst developing into an embryo, it was just a sac of nothing implanted in my uterus. No embryo, just an empty ball of nothing. And the bleeding meant that my body was basically aborting the sac – cervix dilated and well, expelling of uterine wall lining.
In short, I was going through a spontaneous abortion or more commonly known as a miscarriage. It’s funny because Nil’s sister mentioned that I was lucky that it’s not a miscarriage – I supposed she was speaking from a medical context because she went on to explain that miscarriages usually happen because there is something wrong with your body. What I am going through is the opposite – my body is healthy; the egg just wasn’t viable.
Apparently, one fifth of pregnancies end up in this situation – chromosomal defects and such. It is a genetic one-off fluke and almost never repeats itself, especially if the couple is young. Well, at least I know I can get pregnant…and at least I know my ovaries/uterus/cervix is fine.
Emotionally, I’ve did my fair share of bawling like a well (French saying) yesterday and I’m surprisingly alright – still a little down but otherwise okay. Just more concerned about what my parents’ reaction would be…